Story of the Broken F-Bomb Mom

Unfortunately, most people know that being a single mom isn't easy. You may have been raised by one, be friends with one, or even be one yourself. Navigating life while parenting alone can be tough, and finding time for self-care can be extremely difficult. I have noticed, for me in particular, that it's damn near impossible. Never fully healing from childhood traumas, some I haven't even addressed, so how do I approach  self-care properly when my spirit is still battling the demons of my past? The more I listened to self-help gurus and motivational speakers, the more I realized I have to put myself first. I can not properly address my failed marriage, toxic relationships of the past, and the truth about my love-less life, until I confront those scars I try to ignore.

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I come from a single-parent household, just as my mother has and so many of my friends. So when I became a single mother, though it was my decision to leave, I felt as though I had failed my children. I know I tried my hardest, and stayed longer than I should have... but that's because I didn't want to become another statistic. I didn't want my children to experience the same heartbreaking childhood I had. Yet, I knew for my sanity and the benefit of my children, that I had to separate myself from the marriage I was drowning in. Even after that, I still ended up in mentally draining relationships because I was searching for love and comfort in other people. And after my last failed attempt at love, I realized that to change the narrative, I had to change the pattern.

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For the first time in my life I am choosing myself. To address my flaws, my insecurities, my fears, and the roller coaster of craziness that led me to where I am. And hopefully, my journey of self-reflection and growth will benefit others... to change patterns, end self-destructive behaviors, and focus on creating more positive outcomes for their future.

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This, is the beginning of My story...